Friday, May 31, 2013
A Left Out Puzzle Piece, An Alien? Nope...a Woman
God has been encouraging me over the past week as I've been pondering this (even though I've spent the majority of the week moping). Being patient would be to my benefit - no big surprise here. Longing for what I don't have is not going to make things better. Thanking Him for the gifts He has given me - my husband, my kids, my friends - new and old, and my relationship with Him. Falling at His feet and repenting for my unhappiness with what I don't have. Praying over what He is wanting for me, what He is leading me to. The fact that I have not connected deeply in many of the things that I've been involved in and with the people I've spent time with, requires me to take a look at what I should be doing with my time. Relationships are important. We were created for them. I pray that He brings me deep godly connections in my life and that I would shift my need for those to a more healthier thinking -- I do not NEED people (for my purposes), but I want to LOVE them (for God's purposes).
I am encouraged as I read the first chapters of "Captivating" by John & Stasi Eldredge this morning. Man and woman were made in God's image. As women, we long for relationship, to be wanted, needed, chosen...to belong. God does too - we were made in His image. He wants these things too! Mr. Eldridge says, "This is not some weakness or insecurity on the part of a woman, that deep yearning to be desired." I was just simply amazed by this...and am somewhat relieved to know that it is 'okay' to desire relationships/to want to belong so much - that it isn't a weakness or insecurity. It's how God made me and every woman.
I am reminded today that as badly as I want those things...God wants them, too. When is the last time I showed Him the amount of attention that I'd like shown to me? And when is the last time that I sought after Him fiercely? "You will find me," says the Lord, "when you seek me with all your heart" (Jer. 29:13).
I also am reminded that I do belong. I may feel like an alien and have a natural hurt inside because I'm lonely. But...my citizenship is in heaven (Phil. 3:20) and when the Lord comes back for us, I will belong completely and my heart will be whole.
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